In my last blog post I gave a wonderfully happy update on my life. And it's only gotten better! Sunday will be my 9 month anniversary of dating C, and each month is happier than the last. He's such a patient reflection of God's grace. We're at the point where we're looking forward to marriage … Continue reading I’ve never been happier! →

Oh dear, I'm afraid time has flown by! The silly thing is, blogging is something I do when I'm feeling down, but I never seem to keep up with it when I'm happy! I should probably catch up on how life is going, shouldn't I? Where do I begin.....its been over 6 months since I … Continue reading Happiest →

God's doing something. He's got a plan. I don't feel stuck for once, I feel like I'm rolling at a controlled speed, but in an unknown direction. I finished school weeks ago, and my graduation is set for June 22nd. I've been drowning in work from my two jobs, but recently got two weeks off … Continue reading What now? →

It's been a while, and I'm sorry. Life is flying by too fast, and things are holding me down hard. But I'm stronger. I'm still here. I'm just.....getting out of bed later and less interested in things. Oh, well. Life does that. Anyhow, I'm sorry.

Last Sunday I turned 18 (yayyyyy!!) A week ago today I went to the psychiatrist. I was not sure if she'd prescribe anything, since I always try to keep a hopeful outlook. She said, however, that its undoubtedly necessary. Early onset depression causes unfixable damage to the brain. Sexual abuse causes severe chemical shifts in … Continue reading Medication →

What a strange topic, huh? But two things that have been stressing me out the last month. Lets take it one at a time. I had surgery 3 weeks ago. I didn't need the surgery; cysts aren't dangerous. I didn't want the surgery; I'm afraid of needles. But my parents insisted and I relented. They … Continue reading Surgery and money →

I've written a handful of poems. My first poem I'm quite happy with and have shared often. My other two big ones are somewhat dark and rather sad. This latest poem I wrote a week or so ago, in the wee hours of the morning, trying to express my frustrations with my life. I'm a … Continue reading I wrote a poem →

It's been a while, I know. I'm not proud of it. Life has been pelting lemons at me and blogging wasn't top priority. But I'm still alive and plan to get back up and starting writing again. And I'd like it to be understood that I honestly don't blog because I want people to know … Continue reading Yes, I’m still alive →

A book that took five years. Five years of developing the story, of laughing and crying, of learning and growing. I met her 5 years ago when she came to my youth group. We'll call her G. I was but 12, she a year and a half younger. She was fun and intriguing. I befriended … Continue reading A book closed →

I'm back from a wonderful weekend of snow camp. Since my first time going back when I was 12, I've loved every bit of it. This year, my sixth and last year, was so sentimental. My church took a smaller group than ever, but the 10 of us became more unified than ever. Tubing was … Continue reading Snow camp →